I know it’s been a while but wanted to catch you up on a couple of things that have been going on!
Our babies are a growing miracle!! We love them more and more each day and are amazed at their growth every time we see them. Since we had an ultrasound at 5 weeks, it is truly fascinating to see how God takes what we had at 5 weeks, and turns them into tiny humans as they are starting to look like 🙂 We have had such a fantastic summer! We always knew how much we were loved and prayed for, but the response from our pregnancy is truly been overwhelming. And trust me, we have needed and continue to need every prayer so keep them coming!! We feel them every day and know that you all are why we can have such a peace about things.
We had our first scare last week. I was told that the twins journey was a rollercoaster and to hang on by a friend with twins. Boy was she right! I thought our roller coaster rides were over once we got pregnant, but I truly think they are just beginning. We went in for our 12 week appointment and had our ultra sound first. We had invited my parents to come to the ultrasound that day and I can’t explain how amazing that was for me. My parents have been such fantastic role models for me and to share that moment with them was truly special. I’m partial to think I have the best Mom and Dad in the whole world, so I’ve told Justin, if I can be half the parents they are, then our kids will truly be blessed! So for them to be with us as we saw our precious babies move around (and DO I mean MOVE around:)) was surreal. Thanks Mom and Dad for sharing that moment with us! We can’t wait to take Justin’s Mom to experience the same thing soon!
After that amazing ultrasound experience with my parents, Justin and I went back and saw the Dr. She was concerned about Baby B. Baby B has always been a tad bit smaller, and it continues to be smaller. Our Dr expressed concerns that Baby B had something wrong with it genetically and might not make it. Hearing those words were beyond devastating. I somehow held it together until we got to the waiting room and I saw my parents. I can’t express how difficult that day was. Justin and I over the next couple of days prepared to only have 1 baby. The good news in all of this was that Baby A looked great!! He or She was moving around ALL over the place which truly was a fantastic site to see 🙂
I personally didn’t understand. Why? Why us? Why after everything we have been through were we being tested again? God gave us two precious babies, and why was he now possibly going to take one away? It truly made no sense to me at all. But then a couple of things happened….
We immediately sent out text messages to our closest friends and family asking them to pray. And pray for God’s will to be done, not what we wanted but what was best for our babies. And immediately that night I felt prayers. As much as I was hurting, I knew people were praying for me, Justin and these precious babies right then and there. The comfort that provided is truly overwhelming. Then on Thursday night/Friday I started cramping. Of course I panicked — and called the Dr. They saw me Friday morning and we had 2 babies and 2 heartbeats. Justin noticed the Dr looked surprised that there were still 2 babies. I know that God was totally involved in showing both Justin and I right there that our babies were ok. Dr. Arliss did a blood test on Tuesday to decide if there was something genetically wrong with Baby B. We knew we were going to have to wait 7-10 business days to get the results. Now those of you who know me and know me well know patience is NOT one of my strongest assets. So I knew it was going to be a very long week!
I made the decision to go by myself to my parents house for the weekend. Those 6 hours in the car going and coming were the best medicine for me. God reminded me that he is in control of the entire situation as he always has been and that the babies and I will be taken care of. I needed that reminder. God has always been in control….he knows what he’s doing. These babies are going to totally and completely change my life. But the awesome thing is, they already have. They have taught me already that trusting God is the only way to get through this. And life in general.
“Do not be anxious in anything, but in every situation, through prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” ~Philippians 4:6
Were Justin and I anxious to get those test results? Abosuletly! But that verse popped into my head driving to Hickory Friday night and I immediately stopped and thanked God for the healthy baby we have. I knew at that moment, whether we have one or two, it was part of God’s beautiful plan for our lives and it would be ok either way. Hard? Sure….Confusing? Absolutely. But after a few short days, I had a peace about me that I just can’t explain. Of course I was still worried and anxious, but every time I started to worry, I prayed that verse.
Today the Dr called. Immediately I could tell in her voice it was good news. Both babies are healthy! There was nothing genetically wrong with either one and the chances of there being something genetically wrong was so miniscule we don’t have to worry. PRAISE GOD! Talk about answer to prayers….our God takes care of us. All the time, and I’m learning more this year than ever that he has the PERFECT plan!
Now Baby B is still not out of the woods. The Dr is concerned about the growth and development, but this was definitely GREAT news! She said once I got to 20 weeks with both babies, she would rest easier. I will be 14 weeks Monday. 6 more weeks of waiting and worrying — ahhhh….but then VERY quickly I was reminded….”Do not be anxious about anything….” I have said and will say again, God is still in the miracles business and he is bigger than medicine. I have a fantastic Dr – I love her and am so grateful she was suggested to us (Thanks Carrie :)). But she isn’t the ultimate physician. I understand she is doing her job, warning me of what could happen and the risks associated with that and I appreciate her for that. But my God is bigger than any of that. And that is the most encouraging thing that I can think of!
So if you’re a praying person — please remember Justin and I and our babies in your prayers. We need Baby B to grow baby grow 🙂 I personally am using this for an excuse to eat extra ice cream 🙂 Justin and I go back to the Dr Tuesday and will be told more then. Our Dr has mentioned sending us to a high-risk OB just to get a 2nd opinion so I’m not sure what is ahead of us on this incredible journey. I know we are blessed to have these babies, I know some of my friends who are struggling to have 1. So I am thankful, and am not anxious as we wait and see what unfolds! Today we are on top of the roller coaster…..and am so thankful to be!
Thank you for all of the prayers and support and love. You all mean the world to us. These babies are SO lucky (and so are we) to have so many people pulling for us, loving us and praying for us!
Sorry for such the long post, we just wanted to update everyone on what’s been going on! We will keep you posted!
Love,
Justin, Laura and Babies 🙂
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