A Mother’s Love

First of all Happy Mother’s Day to all of the fantastic Mom’s that I know! I hope you all had a special day with your children and loved ones.

I never realized that Mother’s Day had the potential to be a hard day for me. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about the fact that I’m not a mother, so I didn’t think today would be any different. Luckily for me it wasn’t. I woke up to a Facebook message from a friend telling me they were praying for me today, another friend that texted me just to tell me she loved me, more Facebook messages…..I felt so loved and prayed for especially today. I have a fantastic mother (we’ll get there in a minute….) and I know that one day I WILL be a Mother and will able to celebrate this special day as well as every other day/holiday that comes our way. Our family will come – in God’s time, and today I’m at peace with that fact and it’s because of the love and support of my friends and family.

There is nothing better than a Mother’s love. Or Mama as I like to say. 🙂 I have been beyond blessed with 2 of the best parents anyone could ever ask for. The unconditional love and support that they give Justin and I is incredible. From the moment Justin was a part of my life, he was immediately treated as if he were and always had been my parent’s child. I treasure every moment that we get to spend with them!! I was so lucky this year to be able to be with my Mama on Mother’s Day. We had a great weekend honestly doing nothing. Yesterday, John’s (my brother) baseball team that he coaches was playing the state playoffs in Erwin, NC. I was so excited to be able to go to support him in his first year as a head coach. The team lost, but I have to take a second to make this statement. I have never been more proud of my brother than I was yesterday. Seeing the respect and love that the players had for him, literally brought tears to my eyes. He has found his calling — he is meant to coach. And hopefully one day our kids will have fantastic coaches just like my brother who will influence them in a positive way! Even though the team lost, I had a fantastic day. Being in a car for 7 hours total spending time with my parents was just what I needed. Just normal, everyday conversation and maybe even a little singing. 🙂 The love of a Mama (and a Daddy too) is something you just can’t describe. We didn’t do anything special, but being with them this weekend I know is part of why today wasn’t hard for me.

My Mama has taught me so much in my short life, and I can’t wait to keep learning from her as one day I do become a mother. Mama loves me, prays for me, supports me, and is always there for me. She’s the first person I call when I have great news, bad news, or just want to talk. Her mother, my grandmother that I never got the chance to meet passed away 30 years ago this past April. When we realized that today, I realized that I’m so lucky to have my Mama around and to have such a special relationship with her. I just hope and pray that one day, I can be half the mother to my child that my Mama has been and is to me. I thank God every day that I have such fantastic role models in my life who have shown me the definition of amazing parents!

I have had all of my infertility sisters on my mind and in my heart today. And yes we’re all sisters…it’s impossible for anyone to understand how we feel without being there. I know for some of you, today was unbearable…a day filed with tears, frustrations and anger. I’m honestly shocked that I didn’t experience some of those feelings. However, with the love and support of friends and family I was able to make it through. Someone said to me today “Our babies are gonna have some awesome Mamas” 🙂 Yes, Yes they are!! I’ve always been told, that the longer you wait for something the more you’ll appreciate it. I believe that with all of my heart. Mother’s Day will be even MORE special to us because we were given the opportunity to BE Mother’s. All of the days now when everything seems so hopeless, that the black cloud will never be lifted will be worth it. Because in our arms, will be our bundle of joy…..we will get breakfast in bed, special home-made cards, the love, hugs and all of the other fun things that go along with Mother’s Day. And for us, it will mean the world! One Day….we will finally get to experience a mother’s love…and it will be the best feeling ever!